Considering that the amount of people that actually come to this website ordinarily is very small, i doubt this post will be read, but there is a possibility... I guess I'm treating this like a journal entry... i guess...
...well, what can I say... I'm a bit sad actually. Like, legitimately sad. It's crazy how summer can give one the illusion of relaxation, and then fall brings us back to reality. who would have thought that a group in an mmo would have gotten to me like now... I really miss everything guys, I hate the fact that I can't go ingame as often anymore, it's really annoying. But that's life for you, all the fun and games are just slipping away for now. I'm having a hard time adjust to college and life, it is quite overwhelming as some of you may know... it's crazy how things can change when you don't log in for about a week, and then see the differences that has happened while gone. It's like a periodic coma... you wake up, catch up a bit, go back to sleep for some time, wake up again only to find out even more stuff has happened, and then repeat the process. it sucks, and I hate to be so gloomy, I'm usually not this way, but when I am, I need to let it out, whether it's to my best friend, brother, mother, or even right here, right now. I really miss the "good 'ole times", moments that maybe won't be relived again. unfortunately, once 10 minutes go away, they are gone forever, and will never come back...
When i first started playing this game... I would have never expected it to get me the way it is now... it IS just a video game... but idk, something about it has given me this warmth to it...
...and that something... is you guys....
sure, to some people a guild is just a guild and nothing more, just a group of friends, or playmates for that matter. but, when you join a group that is so warm at welcoming, even if it's just something routine, it changes the view of things... at least it did to me. Now this isn't meant for you guys to think that I'm some lonely sap that doesn't have any friends in real life, etc etc. whether you decide to believe that is up to you, but I'm just writing this because I feel the need to express myself. if one wants to express themselves, why should there be a limit, right?
I can't stress it enough how sad and annoyed I am because of how little I can go on. But, I have to live my life, but I will definitely remember you guys for quite the long time. No, this is not a goodbye letter, but considering of how little i'll be going on, it might as well be.
...it's such a big difference... going from logging in almost everyday in the summer, to hardly at all now, and seeing all the changes that go on while away... and I keep thinking of how can a game get to me so much, it IS just a game... and then I always go back and refer to here, like one big circle.
This group will always move on, as long as there's a thrive for it, it will. And everytime I log in, there will most likely be a change...
I used to think that anyone that left for a while without notice would be kicked out. This is natural, the guild doesn't want to have inactive players and needs to make room for active ones. But when I saw that I was still on after I went away without notice, I felt a great feeling for this group, a great sense of family. Sure, none of us know each other in person, but we still treat each other like family, and that says a lot. some people can be like "who the heck is this guy???" and by all means, I don't doubt that it has happened before, but after a while, that question just goes away, and "this guy" becomes part of this family... this neon and noble family...
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.....and now... I've lost all track of what I was going to keep on writing about....
But I do feel much better now, and I'm not just saying that, I feel a lot better. Sure, many of you will probably never see this message, many of you won't even notice it....but either way... thank you.
Thank you for allowing me to be part of this family, to be part of something that is much more than some MMO.
I just really needed to vent a little, y'know? And since idk anyone personally that plays this, I turned to you guys because i know that you guys would understand one way or another... and if you do get a "is this guy some over-loving hippie??" or a "...weirdo..." reaction, that's fine by me. I don't expect everyone to read this so easily, nor do i expect everone to be like "awww".
Well, I guess that's it, there's my not-so-little vent session lol. sorry if I'm taking up space..
Hope to see you in game, to see new faces in game, and to hopefully stay part of this family for a very long time, even if my in-game time is small but enough.
-SolracZe
Subject: ...you guys... 
Sun Aug 29, 2010 9:25 am
so yeah were all come to gf full time! were all hell active and fun.
